Everyone is taking a step tomorrow. A new year in school, first time in college. I have to take a step tomorrow as well. I can't get left behind. Tomorrow will be the day that I really do get a job. Get a purpose in life. Get a reason to get up in the morning. Get a taste of freedom.
This is where it has to begin for me. I have wasted opportunities in the past. I cannot afford to waste any more. I'm going to start making money, save up for the things I need, and make something of myself.
Most importantly, I need to stay educated. I need to read more books, and study to retake my SATs. I need to stay up-to-date with the world. I'm a productive member of society now and I can't just live in my own little world where nothing matters. Otherwise I'm not fulfilling the aforementioned productivity. I'm probably holding myself to a higher standard than necessary...but it's the only way that I can make myself feel like I'm worth something.
I just hope I can live up to my own expectations. No one is better at disappointing you than yourself.
High expectations,
Low motivation,
So much hope.
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